Dishonoured

Dishonoured


Fighting the voices in my head,
Turn one down, and another answers.
Two minds about everything,
Nothing is simple anymore.

Rather live knowing, that you
Don't love me anymore.
Letting go so I can be free,
Don't wanna be unsure.

One day it's light,
The next it's so dark.
It's tearing me, tearing me constantly apart.

Am I not worthy of all I can be?
Of someone who wants to give me wings
and let me fly?

Let go of all the hate.
I am worthy of being all I can be.
I wanna fly.

Cuts don't release me anymore,
Am I a coward for not wanting
to fade away? Or
am I a coward if I let me fade away?

There is no middle ground,
either way I am dishonoured.
Shadows come,
Take me away.

Keep the shadows of your life and love
from oh, so long ago.
Set me free,
Please let me go!

I am fainter day after day,
I never thought

The sun would set so soon.

Sitting in the dark, wanna fall.
There is no courage in me anymore.
Wanna fade out, but still clinging to life;
I am tearing myself, tearing myself
constantly apart.

Written by Andrea Kaldy
August 2009